Monday, September 10, 2007

Update

I'm feeling ok. My stomach is in turmoil but I'm eating and drinking and taking the awful remaining drug I have to take for 5 days after each chemo session (100mg of prednisone). Just when we thought we were getting close with Reed (more than a few full nights of sleep) he had a 1am feeding and basically cried or was rocked by Liza from 4am on. Sleep-training lurks again like a bad dream.

An unexpected mental/physical effect is that I have no expectations for my physical condition at any given time. The drugs have so twisted me that I don't know what's normal, so I don't know if pain is ok or not, if I'll be able to lift my head or not, or what. I don't know much other than treating symptoms. I look forward to some accurate expectations.

Please keep sending that great positive energy, the emails, and notes. You all are the best and you keep me going through the good times and bad.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

David,
You don't even know me, or we may have met once at Elaine and Robin's, but nonetheless I feel such a sense of sadness for what you are going through and awe for how you are dealing. Your strength of spirit, positive nature, acceptance of new ways of dealing (meditation and visualizations especially) and your love for Liza (and the babies) is inspiring. No one should have to go through what you are, but one day soon you will be better, and whole lot stronger. It Will happen, your attitude simply dictates that! Listen to that IPod, look at the children with love and wonder and tell your wife how proud you are of her, and as they say, this to will pass. Keep feeling positive, now lurkers are even rooting for you kid!
Deborah

Debra said...

David, Here's a bit of wisdom from Rachel Naomi Remen, M.D., in Kitchen Table Wisdom: "We all can influence the life force. The tools and strategies of healing are so innate, so much a part of a common human birthright, that we believers in techology pay very little attention to them. But they have lost none of their power.
People have been healing each other since the beginning. Long before there were surgeons, psychologists, oncologists, and internists, we were there for each other. The healing of our present woundedness may lie in recognizing nd reclaiming the capacity we al have to heal each other, the enormous power in the simplest of human relationships: the strength of a touch, the blessing of forgiveness, the grace of someone else taking you just as you are and finding in you an unsuspected goodness."

Anonymous said...

David and family,

We are sorry to hear what you are going through but your optimistic outlook is inspiring. You will be in our thoughts and prayers.

Ryan and Lindsey Sachs

Will Rubenstein said...

David -I am thinking warm happy thoughts about you every day. Please continue to post - each message you put out into the world is another ray of light for all of us who care about you and your family. Love, Willie